How did these come to be?
Ever since I can remember I've always been the unpopular nerd. I was bullied and picked on everyday from elementary through high school which lead me into depression and thoughts of suicide. Around this time I also dealt with the notion of being gay which didn't make things better. Ultimately by learning to love myself for who I am, accepting the fact that bad things do happen; I fixed it, shrugged it off and moved on. Hey, "It Happens."
I came out to myself at the beginning of college and surprise, surprise, I'm no longer depressed. I met friends, best friends, and friends with benefits and had a great time. I tried dating two guys but that failed so I went back to just playing around and chatting with guys on the internet. This one guy wanted to talk to me so I did and we had a great conversation which of course lead to us meeting, greeting, and......well you know.
Both of us thought that we would never see each other after the dreadful deed, but turns out what was a one night stand developed into a great friendship. The more we talked the closer we got and after that I passionately kissed him. I stared into his eyes and didn't want to ever leave him. I fell in love with this beautiful man. I'm very proud to say that we're still doing great together after 10 years. I can go right now, look into his eyes, and feel the very same way I first felt when I in fell in love with him. I consider him my life partner because there is no one else I'd rather spend the rest of my life with.
You see, both of us, though it was worse for him, had rough times and we'd wonder why this is happening to us. He is a great and wonderful person and is the nicest guy you will ever meet. I also like to consider myself as being a nice guy too. Why do bad things happen to good people? The universe has to have balance and when one side either good or bad out weights the other, eventually it has to balance out. We suffered a lot, but through it all we always kept our kind personalities from becoming the very people that hurt us. I believe the universe balanced out because of this, and now life is great with each other.
"Karma," what goes around, comes around. To this day I strongly believe that if you do good things, good things will come back to you, and visa versa. Sometimes it takes a little time to work out, but in the end it always comes through.
I am extremely happy with life right now - it is so wonderful. It's hard to believe that a few years ago I held out hope of ever being happy again. I'm actually at a point in my life where I'm the happiest I have ever been.
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